Sapphire (2016)

by Alexis Penney

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Sapphire is my second full-length album, recorded between 2013-2016 in New York City, NY. Much love and thanks for listening <3

Sapphire
Alexis Penney

Production: Michael Beharie
Mixing/Mastering: Martin Crane

Guitars, Bass, Keys: Michael Beharie
Drums: Yahotei
Backing Vocals: Colin Self, Mehron Priestess, Image Object ("Sapphire" only), Michael Beharie ("Lamentation" only)

For Grant, Nikhil, All The Michaels, All The Mothers

I Sapphire
M. Beharie/A. Penney/J. Crewe

II Litany
M. Beharie/A. Penney

III Eddie Jones
M. Beharie/A. Penney

IV The Soul
M. Beharie/A. Penney

V Nikhil
M. Beharie/A. Penney

VI Athame
M. Beharie/A. Penney

VII Lamentation
M. Beharie/A. Penney

VIII Tunnels
M. Beharie/A. Penney/J. Crewe

IX Litany (Reprise)
M. Beharie/A. Penney

X The Book
M. Beharie/A. Penney

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released December 25, 2016

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Track Name: Sapphire
we were born
light cool blue
cold fire
burns me burns you

in the sky
feeling high
cold call
on the line

and he needs me
don’t know where I’ll find him
don’t know where he is
and he needs me
don’t know where I’ll find him
don’t know where he is

sometimes startled by where you are
will a tone resolve your mind
will your mind resolve desire
will the crying prophet quiet

and they need me
the men that lay beside me
the men that let me in
need my body
a kind of idol worship
a spiritual next of kin

look up high or look inside
your blue eyes are all I see
you’re a myth but you exist
in me

sleep it off
play it cool
touch me smooth
touch my jewel

in the sky
in my blood
are you an ocean
show me love

touch my blues
prove you’re you
Coyote

come to me
I beseech
your mystery

touch my blues
prove you’re you
Michael

I am on and you are too
Sapphire
Track Name: Litany
Ashera 
Ausera
Aphaia
Astoreth 
Tara

Ceeridween 
Kibele 
Hipolyta
Anackira 
Matrona

Ishtar
Inana
Amaterasu
Kuanyin
Rhiannon 

Epona 
Eileithyia 
Freyja 
Gingira
Kali
Isis

Ariadne 
Athena 
Athalia
Maria
Regina 

Artemi 
Minerva
Ragana
Diana
Baba Yaga 

Zemyna
Devi Adi
Laima
Austeja 
Zveruna

Varima-te-takere 
Gayatri
Nuakea
Hekate 

too many names
they try to say 
they don't remember 
but I don't believe it 

Lady of the Snakes 
the Queen of Heaven
Queen of Pain 

wanting nothing 
being everything 
every mother
every tree 

spirals
dancing too slow 
to see 
Track Name: Eddie Jones
me and Eddie jones
we got a weird thing going
I don't have a home
because my heart’s been broken

he can't take me home
because his Mama's always there
got a man around
and daddy's in the sky somewhere 

turtle on his arm
he says his life is changing
always all the time
the sky is always changing 

standing on the rooftop
took my love into his mind
eyes like night and teeth like snow
our boy is out of time 

I like the island Manhattan 
but all I see is you and me
I never had a vacation

ooh California running away
run away from the pain
ooh now I go to find my name
ooh California running away
run away from the pain
ooh now I go to find my name

missing Eddie jones
I couldn't take him with me
sky is changing cold
I had to quit this city

pink fur lady walking
call me baby everywhere 
they don't know my name
can't meet my gazes anywhere 

angel in the snow
I feel my life is changing
back to county roads
it’s just my body changing

every man the same 
in shadows like my baby’s eyes
someone call my name 
someone understand my style 
Track Name: The Soul
every single person 
has got a part of the Soul
you try to think you're separate 
but we're all a part of the whole

the preacher in the window 
five fingers pray to The Man 
each with five faces 
they think they're in on the plan

blonde Shiva 
church singer 
believer 
no secrets 

she sings of rivers 
she wears her silver 
cries to her mother
she is a river

they say “Oh Great spirit.
Hey won’t you grow out my hair?”
you’re praying then you're punished 
but it's all in your hands 

you’re weaving when you're signing 
though you never sew
you’re worshipping you're cursing 
a country you never chose 

do a good deed you ask for something
you’re asking for something in return

do a good deed don't ask for nothing 
asking for nothing in return 
Track Name: Nikhil
your sane
your sanitary interest
your mind and I’m
a prophet witness
we’re here to help you

not sane
I’m vain I’m
stealing kisses
I know
you’ll take back
to your Mrs.
already missing you

you, you walked away
I threw the apple
but I called you a snake

I, I’m at your feet
they call you saint
but you just wanna play
you said “whatever, man”

your body strong
you wanna crash it
you lost your car
you hate your parents
I know they hurt you

an angry god
the child is guiltless
the king of pain
the hooker priestess
I wanna save you

you, you walked away
I threw the apple
but I called you a snake
I, I’m at your feet
they call you saint
but you just wanna play

it’s the end of the world
everything hurts
let it all go now
peace on earth

it’s the end of the pain
from death to birth
letting go of the lightning
peace on earth

you are not your pain
you are not your pain
Track Name: Athame
your mom she called me 
before your birthday 
she thinks The City 
It ate her baby 

I tried to tell her 
how you loved her 
The City made you 
made you Her baby 

ah ooh namah shivaya

The Knife is easy 
but ink is heavy 
my brother leaving 
The Snake is waiting 

wet faces shining 
your band is playing 
the lanterns flying 
The Jade is sharp

ah ooh namah Shiva ya
Shakti Shiva

now you're tripping on angel wings
Cassie says you're a bird again 
but it doesn't matter  
world is changing 
everything dies 

every blessing
a curse the same
The Knife is easy 
but I can't take it 
I never take it
cuz it matters 
people can fly

everything dies
Track Name: Lamentation
gray sky burned to ash
fires echo last 
Wind’s memory

thirty days you're gone
every day the first 
since you left me 

planes hang high like toys
carbon, diamonds, soil 
you’re a part of me

every color mourns
when I'm wearing your clothes
I feel you here 

leaving candles burning 
you said I’d know 
I can hear the ocean 
you said I'd know 

I built my heart into a home
that you burned down
on a Friday night alone in an empty bath tub
I share your bed now 
but I'm alone
I let my anger go 
long ago
but I wanna be mad 

all my lamentation
I let them fly away 
keep flying away 
Track Name: Litany (Reprise)
Maria
Regina
Diana
Asherah
Gaia

everything is real I know what I’m doing
I light blue candles for the ancestors
I have a blue light bulb in a broken desk lamp
it lays above the shrine to you
sometimes I light it when i’m getting down
sometimes I shake
like the fuilmanet in a bulb shakes to make light
kundalini the snake
body shaking they say is the nerves realigning
circling back spiral arms outward
I read that nerves are ancient and plastic which doesn’t mean like how it sounds
we’re all plastic now

sex is a part of all of it
the house is you the room is you
the spirits watch me fuck in pools
pricked myself on a half dead cactus
she’s languished here for years
half alive which were we then
the summer when we first met
the summer when you left
I named her that first day but could never remember what to call her
she is pangea
Gaia
New York
Track Name: Tunnels
dirty white tunnels
tired people
green letters

they died long ago
golden halo 
rats, friends 

find her keep her 
fine asses 
crack and oil 

sweat, incense 
torches, candles 
attention or lust 

I lost my mind 
I have no answers
I just keep sitting here
right where you can see me
even though
you're looking at the girls 
looking at the girls 

I lost my mind 
I just keep screaming 
I couldn't keep her 
you have to see me
even though you’re looking
looking at the girls 
looking at the girls 
looking at the girls 


cops in kippahs 
ancient temples 
see a ghost 

death came also 
by sin, a rose 
say hello 

snakes, singing
I'm Orlando 
an Indian, a Coke 

outside, dark cold 
down here, too warm 
waste and bones 

don't judge the ones you love the most
don't spurn the slave to save the host
don’t curse the bug beneath your shoe
it could be me I could be you

I walked around my corner
walked underneath the stairs
pile of wet glistening trash
hulking beside me
rats dashing back and forth across my path
pretended like they were my friends
as if I would ever

I lost my mind
I have no answers
I just keep sitting here
right where you can see me
even though you’re looking
looking at the girls
looking at the girls

I lost my mind
I have no answers
I just keep screaming
I couldn’t keep her
even though you’re looking
looking at the girls
looking at the girls
Track Name: The Book
I read your book
watered your garden
planted stories about you 

and us 
all over dark wet ground
and watched it grow 

into a forest 
til’ it blocked out 
all the sun and I sound of the 

world outside and 
the people we know and you and I 
It's a miracle I survived 

I read your book 
taught you to pray 
taught you to write 

I held your hand 
we are the same 
now I walk behind 

I met another man and then another and another 
called you Father Man 
I mothered you all 

on beds of leaves 
sleeping at my side 

the wind says no 
you’re angry at night 

your cities bleed 
by electric light 

hungry bodies 
covered in lines 

sell the darkness 
own the light 
you think you have it all but you have nothing

you say you hold the truth
the sun and moon 
and I should walk behind 

I don't fear the truth 
the world your noose 
your truth is
a lie 

sons who fear the Fallen One 
the Evening Star 
afraid to die 

I can see the Truth 
we are the same 
I set you 
on fire